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A song to remember...I just remember how I wrote a song how i get in started? then It comes to my mind that a song comes from a story, maybe its in imaginative way or maybe in reality.(hmmmm) but it doesn't mean that in my song I really experience those things, I made it through a wide imagination or in the expanse of my dreams...
It is a reality that song is the gateway towards thoughts and emotions, it is the way to express and feel free how it feels. Some of my song really do so, maybe in extreme emotion I didn't expect that I made those things.. A story is like a song.. there's lesson that someone made to realized ..and what is special to a song is that , it is not just though how you speak or how you utter those words but it's how you express the melody that lies your word..and anyone who heard those melody will simply understand how you feel. |
I really missing you: " The words of love"
THE INSPIRATION:
Last October will be the crucial days of our relationship. It's just weeks that we need to say goodbye. I hate to say goodbye but I need to, it is needed because it is the only way to move on our life, but suddenly those goodbyes turns to promises and that,live me on to it.
We've been in a month in relationship, in the first place I didn't expect that I really fall in love to her, cause what I want is just to spent time with. But as we go in the journey I think I know her more and that I love her more. I put my attention to somebody but it doesn't do anything. I still never forget her everyday, I always think of her everyday. And that I conclude that I really Extremely fall in love to her.
The first month after were officially in relationship lots of things happened and it seems a year for me. Lots quarrels, new experiences, embarrassment, sweetness everything I think in a relationship just happened for us for only a month.
This is the story:
A boy who really fall-inlove to someone , kahit bawal sige pa rin but you know what? this boy doesn't know anything about the rules in a game of love. When that boy fall-inlove into someone, he did not think about his self, what was his concern is his heart, that was him before aches arrives in him . Ginawa niya lahat ng makakaya niya. Pero kahit anong gawin nya lagi na lang siyang nasasaktan sa huli. But suddenly this boy meets the girl who doesn't he even don't know, just he expected of something might happened, What he did is just an ordinary act , but what really happened is an extra-ordinary thing. They started with a simple conversation"hi!" then she answered"helo" that's the thing, lots of thing happened that time ,until to the point na nagtuloy-tuloy na. Na every minute may ineexpect syang message galing sa kanya. And it really matters, something pushes him to read messages even it's not his attitude to na magabasa ng messages sa phone.
Then araw-araw ng nagyayari yun, at walang sawaang kwentuhan kahit sakit na sakit na ang kamay kakatext sige pa rin. They talk about facts and lies sa buhay nila, mga experiences, and you know what? madami silang similarities sa buhay. Siguro di mo ineexpect na sa mga ganung bagay may uusbong na kakaibang damdamin, Nabigla ang boy when he received a message mula sa girl " Gusto kita" in english " I like you" (hahahaa..)halos tumalon sa tuwa ang boy pero di pa rin siya makapaniwala sa kakaibang nadarama niya. Kaiba sa mga dati nitong gawi di nya ito naramdaman. then matapos nun sinigurado nya ang lahat.. ayaw niyang masaktan siya ulit kaya madami siyang katanungan sa kanya, pero lahat ng yun nasagot niya ng maganda at kapani-paniwala. Nagtiwala siya pero syempre di naman minadali ang lahat humahanap lang siya ng tamang timing para sabihin din ang nararamdaman niya. Then madaming sumunod na mga araw na kulang na lng ay ipagdikit sila.. (hahahhaha) then sinabi na rin sa wakas ng boy ang nararamdaman nito, syempre sagot niya " like din kita" (hmmmmmmm) masyadong torpe pa kasi yung boy pakipot style pa....
Pero one day..nagsawa na si boy iniisp niyang tapusin na lang ang lahat sa kanila kasi alam niyang may mali sa kanila, gumawa siya ng mga alibis para maputol na lahat sa kanila. Pero ang maganda, di sumuko si girl sa kanya patuloy pa rin ang pagtetext niya dito. Then nareceive niya ang text na ganito" I miss you MASTER BOTEN" ( master boten nga pala ang tawag ng girl sa boy; cute!!!) then narealize ng master boten na mali na ginagawa niya kaya gumawa siya ng paraan para maibalik kung ano ang mga nasimulan nya.... naging mahalaga sa kanya every moment na nag-uusap sila. After then ,naging parte na ng mga araw ni master boten ang girl. Di sya makatulog kung di nakakapag gud nyt sa girl... Then yun na... Nagsimula na ang text na " I LOVE YOU" sagot namn ng girl " I lOVE YOU MORE" ( nagsimulang nag isip ang boy kung sigurado na siya). .. Ang totoo may lihim pala itong si master boten. kaya sinabi na niya ang lahat sa girl.. na ang intensyon nya lng talaga ay para paglaruan siya.. pero ang nangyari ay minahal na niya talaga.. Kahit na ganun ang nangyari minahal niya rin ng husto ang boy.. Subra... Kaya di na nagpaliligoy-ligoy pa si master boten!!" TAYO NA?" sa ganoong simulang tanong nag umpisa... ang lumalalim na relasyon...
They decided na magkikita na sila. And you know what happened? Para talagang matagal na sila nagkakilala siguro sa subrang closeness..wala na rin lihim sa kanila. parang magbarkada, Magkasama sila namasyal, nagkulitan, nagkwentuhan, di na napagod ang kamay kakatext..napapanganga na lang sa mga kakaibang kwentuhan nila. Kahit ganun ang mga araw ng mga moments nila, di pa rin sila ligtas sa mga problema ng mga normal na magkasintahan. Di ko namn siguro masasabi na pagtataksil ang ginawa ng girl kay master boten. Pero napakapangit pakinggan at isipin. Nagkaroon ng pangyayari na halos ikasira na ng relasyon nila, yun ay ang pasimpleng paglilihim ng girl sa mga ginagawa niya habang wala si master boten sa kanya.. Nakakatawa man pero nakakainis. Nagconfess si Girl na nagsinungaling siya at may kasalanan siya ... (have an imagination ngayon at isipin ano mararamdaman mo!) Nakipaghalikan si girl sa bading niyang kaibigan... masakit yun para kay master boten.. pero wala na siyang magawa kasi nangyari na... di nya yun mapipipgilan pa... nagkaroon ng matinding diskusyunan, walang kamatayang sisihan, pero di umabot sa punto ng break-up and you know what it really an embarassment? it is just the day befor our monthsary(nakakatawa) pilit na lang inintindi ng boy ang sitwasyon kahit di nya maintindihan. Di lang yun ang mga nangyari, naging mailap ang oras para sa kanila, the time that they've spent getting lesser and lesser habang tumatagal, naging busy na sila sa mga ginagawa nila.. Till dumating ang pinakamasakit na nangyari sa kanila, kailan ng umalis ng girl para sa sarili at pamilya niya. Pero kahit ganun ang nangyari pinilit ni master boten na maging ok ang lahat maging normal ang buhay nila. Kahit nung umpisa parang naging kulang na kuloang ang oras nito sa kanya sa girl na di nya lang naman namalayan that the time is almost up.
Till such time na its just a week before the day na aalis na ang girl. Siguro di na pinayagan ng tadhana na magamit ang oras sa isat-isa., pero may mga oras na nag-usap sila at may nga pangakong binitawan na di maalis sa isipan ni master boten di nya alam kung sa pangako bang yun ay mabubuhay siya. Six months na kailangan malayo si master boten sa kanya. Maraming kailangan gawin si girl para sa buhay niya. Ayaw ni master ng paalam kaya. Nung araw na umalis siya, pinatay niya ang phone kung saan sila nagsimula..Masakit man yun sa kanilang dalawa pero yun lang ang naisip ni master boten para maibsan ang subrang kalungkutan na nadarama nya,. ang alam niya lng ay maghihintay hanggat kaya niya...mabubuhay siya kasi mahal na mahal sya..Patuloy na umiikot sa sa isipan nya ang ang tatlong mahahalagang katagang narinig niya: "I lyk!, I miss you,! I love you!" Patuloy pa rin ang istorya ng pag-ibig niya sa girl kahit man lang sa panaginip ay makasama nya.... sa mga sandali na pakiramdam niya ay nag-iisa sya...at sa mga paniginip na yun isang kataga ang una nyanng sinasambit at nais nyang marinig nya ito...pinapasabi niya "I need you".
THE END...
Lesson: "I've let people take advantage of me, and i accepted way less than i deserve. But i've learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things i can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I'll know better next time and i wont settle anything less than i deserve"
Hindi ko na namalayan: " LOVE LETTER"
Dear Mee,
I want you to know that after the day we met I've fallen deeply in love with you. There are no words to express the gratitude I feel in my heart that you came into my life, and how you make every day so special. You are my life, my heart, my soul.
I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I'll love you more tomorrow than I do today.Loving you is the only thing that makes life worth living. Day by day, my love for you becomes overwhelming, and I can't handle it when I don't see or even talk to you every day.A day without you in my life is like a day without sunshine, a day without food, or a day without air. I need you when I’m cold to keep me warm; I need you in the rain to keep me dry; I need you in my life to keep me happy. Every moment spent together is another one of my dreams coming true.
I apologize straight from the heart for ignoring you whenever you make an attempt to make me feel better after our pointless arguments. I know I overreact a lot, and I'm sorry. I‘m ashamed of how I treat you and I'm sorry I've been so moody lately.
I'm afraid I'll say something to make you forget the feelings you have for me when I mention my past too much and bring up stupid things. I'm worried you won‘t want me anymore. I know I can make you mad, but I promise you that this is all going to change because I love you with everything I have.
I was scared to love you at first, out of fear that you would hurt me and someone would separate us, but I did and it’s the best thing I’ve ever done. Now, the only fear I have is waking up and realizing it’s all a dream.You are the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. Each moment that you and I spend together is so magical that I catch myself smiling for no reason at all.
I thought that I would never find a love that is as strong as ours, but now that we've found each other I know that you are the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, the person I want to marry, the person I want to have babies with, and the person I want to grow old with.
Mee, you complete me. You make my life so amazing and I don't know how else to repay you but to love you just as much as you love me. The world is a better place to be because of you.
You make me feel beautiful. Thank you for giving me so much more than I ever could have wanted. I am so thankful for what we have, and for everything we will have. You are the only one I ever want to share my life with. I could never imagine what it would be like if we were to lose each other. I don't even want to think about it. All I want to think of is you.
You are the love of my life. I love you, and I always will until the day I die. Hopefully, when that day comes, I will still have you by my side and yours will be the last face that I see.
When we’re older with a family and home of our own, we’ll look back at the ways we argued about things that were so insignificant and we’ll laugh and know that our love was strong enough to overcome every argument. I just want you to know that I'm thankful that you came into my life and I will love you till the end of my days. My love for you will never fade, I’m still crazy about you, mee.
Love Always,
Dee
I want you to know that after the day we met I've fallen deeply in love with you. There are no words to express the gratitude I feel in my heart that you came into my life, and how you make every day so special. You are my life, my heart, my soul.
I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I'll love you more tomorrow than I do today.Loving you is the only thing that makes life worth living. Day by day, my love for you becomes overwhelming, and I can't handle it when I don't see or even talk to you every day.A day without you in my life is like a day without sunshine, a day without food, or a day without air. I need you when I’m cold to keep me warm; I need you in the rain to keep me dry; I need you in my life to keep me happy. Every moment spent together is another one of my dreams coming true.
I apologize straight from the heart for ignoring you whenever you make an attempt to make me feel better after our pointless arguments. I know I overreact a lot, and I'm sorry. I‘m ashamed of how I treat you and I'm sorry I've been so moody lately.
I'm afraid I'll say something to make you forget the feelings you have for me when I mention my past too much and bring up stupid things. I'm worried you won‘t want me anymore. I know I can make you mad, but I promise you that this is all going to change because I love you with everything I have.
I was scared to love you at first, out of fear that you would hurt me and someone would separate us, but I did and it’s the best thing I’ve ever done. Now, the only fear I have is waking up and realizing it’s all a dream.You are the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. Each moment that you and I spend together is so magical that I catch myself smiling for no reason at all.
I thought that I would never find a love that is as strong as ours, but now that we've found each other I know that you are the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, the person I want to marry, the person I want to have babies with, and the person I want to grow old with.
Mee, you complete me. You make my life so amazing and I don't know how else to repay you but to love you just as much as you love me. The world is a better place to be because of you.
You make me feel beautiful. Thank you for giving me so much more than I ever could have wanted. I am so thankful for what we have, and for everything we will have. You are the only one I ever want to share my life with. I could never imagine what it would be like if we were to lose each other. I don't even want to think about it. All I want to think of is you.
You are the love of my life. I love you, and I always will until the day I die. Hopefully, when that day comes, I will still have you by my side and yours will be the last face that I see.
When we’re older with a family and home of our own, we’ll look back at the ways we argued about things that were so insignificant and we’ll laugh and know that our love was strong enough to overcome every argument. I just want you to know that I'm thankful that you came into my life and I will love you till the end of my days. My love for you will never fade, I’m still crazy about you, mee.
Love Always,
Dee
Million Pieces
The saddest thing to do is to set free of someone you love the most, someone who already offered your life. It is a heart breaking moment of letting go. You thought that you can but the truth is you cant, but still the reality of being in-love still exist it says "the one who love you the most is also the one who hurt you the most." were not ready for this but we should.
I am Liam, 19 years old , people says I'm lucky to have this kind of face but what I feel is that.. it just cause to mess up the whole thing about me. When I was in high school, my first girlfriend Mae she is smart, cool and pretty.. I really love to have her to be with her, to be her boyfriend... Mae want me to slept with her for a night.. I know that it is all wrong but my heart..
I am Liam, 19 years old , people says I'm lucky to have this kind of face but what I feel is that.. it just cause to mess up the whole thing about me. When I was in high school, my first girlfriend Mae she is smart, cool and pretty.. I really love to have her to be with her, to be her boyfriend... Mae want me to slept with her for a night.. I know that it is all wrong but my heart..